AFTER TWO WEEKS OF FREAKING SCHOOL I AM LIKE SO TOTALLY DEAD >=O WTF

ahhhaaaaaaaa this is awesome.... birthday in like 13 WOOO THIRTEEN FREAKING DAYS awesome and i just downloaded muchos muchos amounts of musak just now heeheeeee XD and also looked at all these awesome awesome *terrible cough* stories i meant to finish this summer and TOTALLY DIDNT WHAT????

haha and new drama cuz like haha ... ... someone actually likes me O.o AHHHHH SHOUJO *flail*

hahaha he humped an imaginary girl llama... ... O.o whatever

lets go random... ... ... i just so totally faved tons of bobsmade's crap.... too lazy to link so go look him/her up if ur interested whoever actually reads this stuff -_- seriously i just use this as a mind dump so if you actually read this O.o yay you... ...

so college level classes... ... totally not my thing *guess who's not going to college now cough*

so i actually started listening to owl city and haha his voice is so sooothingggggg

doubleplusgood

sho ya its like 18 or someodd days till school... SO totally NOT ready >.> AT ALL OMG sho anyway i just started maplestory again after waht? 2 years? anyway and i made yet ANOTHER new character like... 7 since i just started again lol and anyway i was going to follow the umm thief class... ... yeah i totally mentally sploded and died from exhaustion omg never ever ever make me make a thief im going back to safety on warriors... ... oh an hey the pirates arent as bad as i thought haha sho cool theyre awesome... if u know what ur doing >.> holy crap and cygnus knights are such a pain in the ass but its pretty awesome having a lil Soul *referring to soul from soul eater* following u around... and the fire cygnus looks alot like amidamaru *name of someone from shamen king* heehee lol man havent read that in ages O.o oh dude i feel old anyway sho i recently confessed to someone lol i guesss u could say it was a good idea O.o omg and matt went to EUROPE OMG MAN i miss him =3 heehee sho coo i envy him too >.> damn lucky bastard OH AND MARKS GETTING A PUPPY XD OMG IM SO HAPPY LOL *just watched a free hugs campaign on youtube which made me smile and happy and my heart bled or rather oooooozed the feeling of happiness lol its like joy is sho hard for my body to contain O.o* anyway so im high so yay for ranting XDXD coo rite? LOL so im looking at my second journal which says BIRTHDAY XDXD as subject... ... pretty damn near close to the next one =3 heehee oooooooh moon fes coming and then renfes and then onicon =3 and then christmas and then new years and then chinese new years WHEW thats like half the school year alrdy O.o omg compsci ap is sounding sho fun rite now... urgh omg i just realized i need to start prioritizing for stuco and dance and then at the end of the year ima go for dolls lol so much pressure on that cuz i wanna get in so i dont have to play that damn harp anymore and also my friend thinks it would SHO totally be coo if i was in dolls and he was in marching band lol... ... that would be coo wouldnt it? oh man my life is so totally messed up cuz of how much is planned for the whole shiz =.= urrrrrrgh



OH I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW THAT ITS ALMOST ALL OUT XD if u read all that kudos to u *hugz* yah.... .... and *mwah* heehee =3 im in lovvvvve *jk im in like XD*

okie so my friendly friend aka girly girl whos really a guy but hes like my gf cuz he looks like a girl to me at least
any way hes off to cali over the weekend
unfortunately hes my talkytalk person on aim so like
im all alone DX
IM LONELY
im going into withdrawel, someone save me lol
yeah so without him life kinda hurts -_-'
TIS BORING IM BORED DX

okie so like about 30 min ago my dad was getting on my case about not doing my hw rite? yeah so my brother geets home
AND STARTS PLAYING HIS N00BISH VIOLA WHILE FAILING EPICLY and my dad WANNTS ME TO DO MY FUCKING HW while I CANNOT CONCENTRATE and both me and my sister agree that he needs to move but my dad is like NOOOOOOOO
so now i have to suffer
and suffer
and suffer
in hell
i hate my brother
i hate my father
i with my mother
would come back soon

DAHHHHHHHHHHHHI NM PISSEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDD help me before i kill someone

okie well i was gonna put on a new poem but deviant is being difficult with me and im too lazy to figure out wth its trying to tell me... OKAY I KNOW YOU HATE ME GOD but anyway... yeah thats it... heres the poem...

dont
dont say goodbye
like that in that voice with that face
i will be sad i will cry
i dont want this to affect me
see
look im smiling
for you so you wont have to remember
a wretched face drowning in tears
twistend in loneliness
no
no i will wait until you leave me
and i will give in to this
but until then
dont
dont say it like that

you could say i was feeling particularily mellow... but then again you could say that i was haveing my period and i felt like writing this because of said period... XD anyhoo im just on the HUGE cramps that are ruining my lower back so you know... its all good here where i am